Welcome! My name is Amy Riordan. In 2010, God put it on my heart to start sharing my story on my blog (formerly known as Walking in Freedom). I thought I was the only Christian woman who struggled with pornography and same-sex attraction, and I felt such shame and isolation. Since then, women from all over the world have reached out to say they have also wrestled with issues regarding their sexuality.
Many of us have a deep longing for intimacy. We can try to fill this deep longing in many ways. Despite what our hearts tell us, this deep longing for intimacy is not something that can be filled by sex or through a deep emotional connection with another person. Certainly, we are created to experience connection and emotional intimacy with others, but our ultimate fulfillment is found in an intimate relationship with Jesus.
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Longing for Intimacy is a place for women wrestling with pornography, lust, issues related to sexuality, and those looking to build deeper intimacy with Jesus.
I am a licensed pastoral counselor with the National Christian Counseling Association, and I have been ministering to women in the areas of identity, shame, trauma, same sex attraction, and pornography addiction since 2010. I am an author at Covenant Eyes and was featured in the documentary feature, “The Heart of the Matter: Finding Light in the Darkness of Pornography Addiction”, released in October 2014.
I enjoy sharing my testimony as a way to help break the ice and start the conversation about women in the church who wrestle with pornography, lust, and issues related to their sexuality. It is my desire to help “get the ball rolling” and be a support to the local church as they minister to those in their care who struggle in this way.
I created a 4-part video series as a helpful resource for those struggling with same-sex attraction as well as church leaders who are ministering to others in this area, if you would like to check that out.
If you are looking for a speaker for your retreat or event, I enjoy speaking to groups of all kinds! Click here for more details.
My book (below) was also released in March 2018. It is now available on Amazon.
Some of My Interviews/Articles/Presentations:
Amy’s Speaking Videos / Messages
“Finding Accountability for Pornography When You Struggle with Same-Sex Attraction” – Beggar’s Daughter
This is a clip of my interview from The Heart of the Matter Documentary: (See their finished film here.)
Guest Podcasts:
- “Christians and Same-Sex Attractions” – Conrad Rocks
- “Women Struggle with Lust, Too” – Hole in My Heart Ministries
- “Overcoming Porn” – Conrad Rocks
You can find me on any of these sites:
There is nothing better than intimacy with Jesus!
Amy Riordan
Happy New Years beloved of God. A mutual friend Jennifer shared your site. I have also shared the same struggle as many others. I have learned to confess what I did and trust that I have been delivered. I am just not experiencing the freedom. Like when receiving the Holy Spirit. I knew that I knew. I am just waiting.
Please pray for me.
Please pray for me, I seem to just be going round in circles, Sometimes I try my hardest to fight lust and eventually fail, and then sometimes I feel that if Christ is the Saviour why is it so hard to break free?
I will definitely pray for you, James. Don’t give up the fight! Jesus died for your freedom. Keep your eyes on Him. I would recommend finding someone you know (who is spiritually mature and who you can trust) to confide in and pray with/for you. A great resource that may be helpful for you, is Covenant Eyes. Check out their blog.
This blog has been instrumental and helpful to me on my path to finding deliverance from the areas in my life that I have been struggling with for a long time. So thank you, Amy. 🙂
I can relate to those dark and depressing thoughts enumerated above by Amy because I have thought most of them too. I felt that I was alone in my struggle…but I know that there are many girls like me…I just didn’t know them.
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You’re welcome, Hannah. 🙂 It’s been a blessing for me to hear how the Lord has been working in your life, and I’m glad to have met you.